strings of the future

Hey Thomas,
I wonder what's going to happen. I feel like you want to talk to someone, sometimes I'm not sure if we talk because you need someone to talk to or because you really feel a connection with me. I think it's both. Right now I feel tired, like I'm making a lot of effort to maintain a connection with you, and that you're often acting out of fear. I don't know you well enough to know what you're afraid of. I'm not sure when to talk about it with you but I think you would benefit a lot from going to therapy. To do that myself has been the single most important decision I have ever made, and going there has changed my life and helped me communicate and have much healthier relationships with people I love. This is what I feel like would be really good for you.
I think the part that makes me upset is that we have had some drama and I don't want that because it speeds up feelings that should be a slow burn. I feel such a strong potential for you to be a positive force. I feel like I need you as a person in the world. I don't know what the configuration is going to be but I want you to take care of yourself and I think that needs to happen before we could be close. I have worked hard to become a positive person and I think that you can do it too, I know that if I try to get involved in that too much it's going to interfere with what we could have together.